Greetings. Yes, it's been a good many months since the CD Slut experiment wound down. I managed to buy a CD every day, as per the plan, and then snagged another 30-something records at that place before I skipped town. I'm still getting through those, as well as the batches I bought on various travels afterwards. But getting through things like the Germs, Edith Piaf and Deep Purple all in rapid succession doesn't seem particularly exciting right now, so I'm taking it nice and slow. I've since implemented a moratorium on new purchases - it's just not fun to try to absorb that much stuff at that pace and keep up your enthusiasm. To an extent, that's the life of a rock critic, but the speed isn't (or shouldn't be) quite so furious.Anyhow, as I scroll back through the entries (particularly the ones I don't remember - looking at the timestamps should tell you something about my state of mind for doing most of these) I've determined I can't hack it with the snark. Ever since I was an overzealous and embarrassingly earnest Tool fan in high school, my capacity for mockery only goes so far. I never want to get to a sickeningly obsessive, overwrought level, but at the same time, I find that in the way I pass judgment, as well as in what I like to read, I ultimately value most when someone speaks plainly and directly, without the sneer and rolling of eyes that seems to be such a staple of contemporary music criticism. I definitely talk that way sometimes, but there's something about it that translates to sheer annoyance when put into written words, and I've found I can't really go through with it.
Ultimately, what really should come across is excitement. You're excited when it's great, and disappointed when it's underwhelming, only because you really wanted to like it. When I stop listening with the enthusiasm I had when I was fourteen, it will be time to reassess.
A few weeks ago, I was at a bar with one of the bands I had written about on CD Slut. They had taken over the house PA, and were playing random cuts off of their iPods. We stood in a circle with the widest stances we could and air-guitared to old Metallica, Megadeth and Guns N' Roses songs, and it was probably one of the most fun nights I've had in years. It felt like I was back in my room with the posters on the walls of bands I don't listen to so much anymore, making acne-scarred faces that would be of 'naked at school' levels of terror if anyone else saw them.
That's what I'm looking for. I want to like it, I want to say it, and I want to mean it. But in the current music media climate of overanalysis and smirks and ratings down to the percentage point, I don't know where the space for that is anymore. Let's cast aside this nervous self-consciousness and let ourselves be excited again.






